The Diary of a Young Girl-Anne Frank- Thursday-anuary 6-1944 onwards

 The Diary of a Young Girl-Anne Frank-

Thursday-anuary 6-1944 onwards

In this entry, Anne talks about her two secrets. First is about her mother, who says that she she deals with her children like her friends. But Anne needs her mother to set an example of a person whom can respect. She also believes that a friend cannot take place of a mother. She also knows that Margot can never think in the way she does about her mother. Her father avoids all conversation about her mother.

Anne also writes about the mother of her imagination., She says that ‘the mother should be a tactful woman to deal with her adolescent children. She should not be like her own mother “Mrs. Frank”, who pokes fun at her when she cries.

She narrates one incident in this context. Once she had to go to a dentist along with her mother and sister. Anne  also allowed to take her bicycle with her. After the dentist’s job was over, they came outside the clinic. Her mother and sister very lovingly informed her that they were going to market to buy or see something. Anne also said that she wanted to go with them. 

But she was not allowed to go with them because she was on her bicycle. So ‘tears of rage’ rolled down her cheeks and both of them began to laugh at her in that situation. Anne was so furious that she stuck her tongue out at them in front of all who were present in the market. After that she came back home on her bike and she must have cried for hours. Such incidents happened several times to her and she carried such type of pain all the time in her heart.

Anne also writes that, at the unconscious level, she had had experienced such feelings before also.

Thursday, January 06, 1944

Anne writes that she feels the urge to have someone to talk to. In her mind, she has selected Peter for this role, she she has visited his room and felt comfortable there. But, she also tries that he should not think that she is ‘a pest’ for him. She tries to engage him in a long conversation on some excuse. She got this chance the previous day when she found him going through a cross word-puzzle. Soon it was over and they sat across each other, Peter on the chair and Anne on the divan.

Anne further writes that she had a wonderful feeling to see his dark blue eyes, his bashfulness () on her unexpected visit in his room. She was able to read his “innermost thoughts”. She also saw a flicker of awareness of his masculinity and his shyness. She wanted to say, “Tell me about yourself. Look beneath my chatty exterior”. But she could tell him only about the article on blushing.

That night, she thought deeply on what she had done to satisfy her longing. The idea to beg Peter to do her favour was just revolting.

Anne says that she woke up just before seven and immediately remembered her dreams. One was about Peter and the second was about her paternal grandmother. The third dream was about Hanneli, her friend and who still symbolizes the sufferings of her friends and that of the Jews in general.

Friday, January 07, 1944

In this diary entry, Anne writes that she had developed  liking for Sally Kimnel and Appy and lter on she liked another boy, named Peter. Peter also liked her too much and she still remembers the days when they walked hand in hand with each other in their neighbourhood: Peter in white suit and she in short summer dress. Peter was an ideal boy for her: tall, good-looking and slender (). He had serious quiet intelligent face, dark hair, beautiful brown eyes, ruddy (reddish) cheeks.  

She was crazy about him. Time passed by and he no longer bothered even to say her hello. Then she took admission in Jewish Lyceum and several boys were in love with her there and she felt honoured by their attention. Anne also writes that Hello a terrible crush on her. But she never fell in love with anyone after her relationship with Peter.

With the passage of time, she forgot Peter and she did not like him. The main reason for her dislike for him was her jealousy for other girls.

Anne further admits that in the heart of hearts, she still loved Peter. She says that Peter thought her childish and in spite of that, she feels hurt at the thought that he has completely forgotten her. She still yearns that he should kiss her. Sometimes she watches her face in the mirror and finds it looking different with eyes so clear and deep and cheeks so rosy. But her happiness and smile soon fade away when she thinks that Petel (She also calls Petel in fondness.) would not be thinking of her.

This morning, she imagined herself in the front attic with Peter. Both of them were sitting on the floor by the window. After a brief conversation, they started crying. Such is Anne’s state of mind due to her obsessive love for Peter (not Peter van Daan).