The Diary of a Young Girl-Anne Frank- Thursday, October 29-Nov-02-05-07-1942

 The Diary of a Young Girl-Anne Frank- Thursday, October 29, 1942

Anne mentions in this diary entry about her worry because her father has some spots on his body has high fever also. It looks like measles. They cannot imagine calling a doctor.

Next she gives some new reports about Mr. van Daan’s apartment. Miep says that furniture has been removed from their apartment and shifted to Zuider Amstellaan. This report has not been shared with Mrs. Van Daan as she becomes nervous so easily. Anne says that they did not want her groan and groan about her beautiful china and lovely chairs which had been abandoned (left) behind. Anne says that they have also left so many beautiful things behind in their apartment and they think it unwise to grumble over them.

Anne’s father advises her to read the books written by Hebbel and some well known (famous) German writers. She says that she is able to read German books easily now. Her father has taken the plays of Goethe and Schiller down from the big book case and he is planning to read them to her every evening. After mentioning a few more books, she writes that they are going to light the stove for the first time.

Monday, November 02, 1942

Bep stayed with them on Friday evening. They had their fun, but Bep could not sleep properly as she had drunk wine. After that, some comments to this entry on January 22, 1944 also.

Tuesday, November 05, 1942

Anne says that she has nothing special to write in this diary entry. She has been reading a lot and doing less work. The relation between she and her mother is getting better, but still they are not coming closer to each other. Her father is not  open about his feelings, but still she likes him very much. Then she talks about the smoke that has spread in the room as they have started lighting a stove for preparing food, etc.

She calls Margot a stinker (very unpleasant person), who is a constant source of irritation for her.

Saturday, Nov. 07, 1942

Anne begins mentioning that father and mother never scold Margot and she wonders if it could be a co-incidence. She gives an example here to show as to why she was scolded by her parents.

Margot was reading a book having beautiful pictures in it. She got up and put the book aside. Anne was not doing anything at that time, so she picked up the book and started watching pictures in it. She had no intention of not giving the book back to Margot. She just wanted to see the pictures till she returns. 

In the meantime, Margot comes back and without giving any space to Anne, started fuming (getting angry) at Anne and demanded the book back from Anne, who wanted to go through the book little more. That made Margot madder and then her mother butted in (interrupted): “Margot was reading that book; give it back to her.”

After that, her father came in and without understanding the whole matter, lashed out (scolded severely) at her.

Anne promptly (quickly) gave in (surrendered), put the book down as they desired and left the room in a huff (in an angry mood). But she was sad at the whole incident. She felt that it was not right og her father to pass judgment without knowing the whole issue and facts about it. She would have given the book to Margot after a few minutes.

Anne is used to this because they always take each other’s side. She does not bother about her mother’s rebukes to her and Margot’s moodiness. In spite of all this, she loves them as one is her mother and the other is her sister. She is totally indifferent to them, but still she has great concern for her father.

She feels much grieved at heart when she finds her father taking side of Margot, “…approving her each action, praising her, hugging her…” She feels a “gnawing (piercing) ache inside her because she is crazy about her father.” She extremely loves him and he is her ‘role model’.

Thus, here, Anne pours out her feelings about her father’s lack of realization about what Anne needs form him. She needs that her father really loves her, not because she is her child, but because she is Anne.

Her mother is growing unbearable for her daily and she needs that her father should talk to her about Mother so that she could vent out her feelings in front of him. But he avoids any discussion about her.

Anne is opposite to her mother, so there is always a clash between them. Anne tries to overlook her negative points but that does not work. She says that the worst thing is that her father and mother, both of them, do not realize their own inadequacies (short-comings / weak-points).

She longs for parents who can make their children completely happy.

Sometimes she consoles herself that God is trying to put her to a test to make her a strong person by means of her own efforts without taking anyone’s help.

Her parents are not consistent in their treatment to her. One day, they call her sensible and the other day, she becomes a ‘silly goose’ for them.

When she is alone at night, her mind is filled with such thoughts and during the day she has to put up with (tolerate) people who invariably (almost very often) misinterpret (give wrong meanings) her idea and intentions. So she comes back to her diary and pours out what she thinks and feels to Kitty because she is so patient.